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suppressing it
by ~iloveroxas13
What have I done?Tears flow down my cheeks incessantly,  
Little droplets racing to see who can get to the bottom first  The pain in my heart aches so much  I cannot deal with this, it is TOO much- I don't know HOW to deal with it...   
Rocking back and forth, hugging my knees  I sob until my face is tinted a bright red-  Stinging from the constant force of my hand  
Wiping the never-ending tears away   
I realize there’s only one thing to do  
So that I could escape my pain.  Slowly rising out from beneath the covers of my bed, I quietly walk to my drawer  And reach for the scissors inside What have I done?
by ~iloveroxas13
Ms. MisunderstoodWhy does nobody understand?  Why does nobody believe me?  All the suicidal thoughts  Invading my mind incessantly   
This horrible pain and sadness  That I feel everyday-  Will I ever be happy again?  Will I ever find a way?   
They all make fun of me  Just because I feel different  Just because of the things I feel  
And because of the ways I vent   
It’s not funny; I see you laughing.  
Will you laugh when I’m dead?  I’m telling you with all honesty,  It’s living that I dread. Ms. Misunderstood
by ~iloveroxas13
Dear those I hateDear classmates and teachers,   
       I’m sick of you. I’m sick of your bullshit, and I hate you all. Yeah, sure, I like a few people, those who are worthy enough for me to call friends, but they are the only exceptions. I hate everyone else. You made fun of me in elementary school, put me in an I-hate-the-world- but-most-of- all-myself state in middle school, and once high school came around, I felt like shooting myself. Not only were you annoying little piece of shits, but you never cared about me. Thus, I will never care for you. The teachers gave me a letter for all the hard work I Dear those I hate
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Mon Oct 19, 2009, 4:26 PM
According to my last journal, it's been about... oh, nine-ish months since I've had meds for depression.
It was going pretty awesome. My self-harming habits went away slowly, although once in a while something popped up.
Until about August-ish.
I had started cutting a bit when I got anxious.
Then it went so far as to me attempting suicide.
Then it got a little better, I realized that was stupid, and I felt awesome again.
Now, I'm feeling a bit iffy. The other day I cut, and I haven't cut since August.
And I did it again today... >.<
Should I tell my therapist, or should I just see if this is a little phase in my mood? I will be seeing her Tuesday, after all...
I don't know... I've been a bit sad recently, plus, I feel like I'm about to faint every second. XD Not really, but I feel sick and tired a lot.

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~xxNothingisEternalxx Mar 25, 2009, 5:14:23 PM
Thank you for the fave!

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~TGDavies Feb 5, 2009, 9:10:38 AM
Cheers for faveing!

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~mistoflight Oct 29, 2008, 11:27:52 AM
It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.
~Alan Cohen

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=Meixly Oct 6, 2008, 3:38:11 PM
*tags*

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"Shutting away the boredom of everyday life from my mind. Bringing even the gravity of ungracious time to naught." Asuka Katsura
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=Meixly Sep 14, 2008, 9:16:05 AM
...what on earth are you drawing that you need another account for?! And hi...

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"Shutting away the boredom of everyday life from my mind. Bringing even the gravity of ungracious time to naught." Asuka Katsura
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~iloveroxas13 Sep 22, 2008, 3:44:13 PM
Hm? Oh. Just stuff I don't want mi madre to see. That's all.
And maybe people in real life. Although I've already watched you so it's like... er... pointless...
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